Category: Thoughts

June 22, 2019 Thoughts Post a Comment

Reality sinking in

I have just hit 40 and it has made me realize about life. I am confused and somewhat clear also. maybe a midlife crisis is about to set in and make me more miserable but I am not sure.

remembering a lot of people today. a lot of places also. missing Islamabad also today. the Islamabad from the 90s. the time period is beyond me but it is hard to let go. maybe it is hard to let go of anything that was good.

Am I the only one who is stuck in this time loop in my head. I am not able to get out or leave it and move forward. it is anchoring me and stopping me from moving forward.

I miss the Jinnah Super of 90s, the hot spot, IMCB F-7/3, NCC and taking Van 120 to F-10. Walking sometimes from F-7/3 to F-10, I would pass by the Froebels school, Rana market, Fatima Jinnah Park, many times I covered this distance on foot. time didn’t matter, there was a whole life in front of me.

Now that is 20 years behind me and not much life in front of me. I had my chance, did I make a difference or just let life go. Maybe time will tell. those missed relations, those missed opportunities, those missed laughs, and friendships.

All have passed me. Maybe i passed myself through this time.

May 31, 2018 Thoughts Post a Comment

Layoffs

So the layoffs news has been hot for a week, then it actually happened. The day is a heavy day. it feels like a horrible accident has happened and news of casualties is trickling in.

The morning starts with “Is it happening today”

the mid of the day is a tally of up to this many people have been laid off.

The Day ends with “It’s a depressing day”

The irony in all this is that fact I cannot see the logic behind it. There is the reason of budget cuts but the process is crude and merciless. What about the aspect of Ramadan, Seriously, we are destroying people’s Eid with the stress of Job Loss and no future.

The people let go are leaving Gaps behind in the operations that cannot be filled easily, they might end up hiring people again to fill the same gaps.

not sure what is going on but it is not good.

Maybe this fits in with the greater issue in the region, the Blockade but it is sad and depressing. the whole charm of moving to MiddleEast is off me. Maybe one more adventure and back home.

March 5, 2018 Thoughts Post a Comment

Memories

My father is amazing guy. Even in his old age he inspires me. It is sad that i couldnt turn out to be the stronger and better version of what he wanted but i pray i still am able to make him proud.

April 14, 2016 Thoughts Post a Comment

There was a time

When I couldn’t afford a McDonald’s meal. It was a luxury I thought beyond me. The same time a khaki pants from Walmart was off limits. When I did gather courage to buy one for less than 20$, I felt I had accomplished something in life.

Looking back, I am forgetful and unthankful. Life is not about the latest cars or beat gadgets. I was more happy when I had that Walmart pants than now I can afford much better alhamdulilah.

Never forget where you come from. Remind you soul it’s place and let it not transgress with using you desires. I worked for 5.25$ per hour and it was a blessing.

April 13, 2016 Thoughts Post a Comment

Born with it

Came across alot of “influencers” recently. What is amazing is that they not older than 25 or so. So what makes them an influencer?

Apparently their last name. If you are born with a huge bank balance or family name or royalty. You are an influencer. You might not be capable of crap but you are an influencer.

Hail to the losers.

April 28, 2015 Thoughts Post a Comment

Just a little bit of push

All I have to do it push my self a little bit and maybe things will get better. Gotta put that extra bit in and maybe things will work out inshallah. Trying to be optimistic rather than a pessimistic will help me accomplish all. All is can do is try inshallah and Allah will help me rest of the way. But one thing that is critical is the faith in the all mighty cuz without faith in him I can out in 200% but that won’t make a difference.