I read this hadith and get scared but then Duniya takes over me and then i read this again and get scared and then duniya takes over me ….. :(

Volume 2, Book 23, Number 468:
Narrated Samura bin Jundab:
Whenever the Prophet finished the (morning) prayer, he would face us and ask, “Who amongst you had a dream last night?” So if anyone had seen a dream he would narrate it. The Prophet would say: “Ma sha’a-llah” (An Arabic maxim meaning literally, ‘What Allah wished,’ and it indicates a good omen.) One day, he asked us whether anyone of us had seen a dream. We replied in the negative. The Prophet said, “But I had seen (a dream) last night that two men came to me, caught hold of my hands, and took me to the Sacred Land (Jerusalem). There, I saw a person sitting and another standing with an iron hook in his hand pushing it inside the mouth of the former till it reached the jaw-bone, and then tore off one side of his cheek, and then did the same with the other side; in the mean-time the first side of his cheek became normal again and then he repeated the same operation again. I said, ‘What is this?’ They told me to proceed on and we went on till we came to a man Lying flat on his back, and another man standing at his head carrying a stone or a piece of rock, and crushing the head of the Lying man, with that stone. Whenever he struck him, the stone rolled away.
The man went to pick it up and by the time he returned to him, the crushed head had returned to its normal state and the man came back and struck him again (and so on). I said, ‘Who is this?’ They told me to proceed on; so we proceeded on and passed by a hole like an oven; with a narrow top and wide bottom, and the fire was kindling underneath that hole. Whenever the fire-flame went up, the people were lifted up to such an extent that they about to get out of it, and whenever the fire got quieter, the people went down into it, and there were naked men and women in it. I said, ‘Who is this?’ They told me to proceed on. So we proceeded on till we reached a river of blood and a man was in it, and another man was standing at its bank with stones in front of him, facing the man standing in the river. Whenever the man in the river wanted to come out, the other one threw a stone in his mouth and caused him to retreat to his original position; and so whenever he wanted to come out the other would throw a stone in his mouth, and he would retreat to his original position. I asked, ‘What is this?’ They told me to proceed on and we did so till we reached a well-flourished green garden having a huge tree and near its root was sitting an old man with some children. (I saw) Another man near the tree with fire in front of him and he was kindling it up. Then they (i.e. my two companions) made me climb up the tree and made me enter a house, better than which I have ever seen. In it were some old men and young men, women and children.
Then they took me out of this house and made me climb up the tree and made me enter another house that was better and superior (to the first) containing old and young people. I said to them (i.e. my two companions), ‘You have made me ramble all the night. Tell me all about that I have seen.’ They said, ‘Yes. As for the one whose cheek you saw being torn away, he was a liar and he used to tell lies, and the people would report those lies on his authority till they spread all over the world. So, he will be punished like that till the Day of Resurrection.
The one whose head you saw being crushed is the one whom Allah had given the knowledge of Quran (i.e. knowing it by heart) but he used to sleep at night (i.e. he did not recite it then) and did not use to act upon it (i.e. upon its orders etc.) by day; and so this punishment will go on till the Day of Resurrection. And those you saw in the hole (like oven) were adulterers (those men and women who commit illegal sexual intercourse). And those you saw in the river of blood were those dealing in Riba (usury). And the old man who was sitting at the base of the tree was Abraham and the little children around him were the offspring of the people. And the one who was kindling the fire was Malik, the gate-keeper of the Hell-fire. And the first house in which you have gone was the house of the common believers, and the second house was of the martyrs. I am Gabriel and this is Michael. Raise your head.’ I raised my head and saw a thing like a cloud over me. They said, ‘That is your place.’ I said, ‘Let me enter my place.’ They said, ‘You still have some life which you have not yet completed, and when you complete (that remaining portion of your life) you will then enter your place.’ ”
If one doesnt realize his/her mistakes after reading this then that person is truly lost šŸ™

The same is in urdu at these two pages
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NYPD spied on Muslim Student … REALLY

Am I even surprised about this, this goes on as a norm in the American Society and there is no qualms about it, be it the constitution or any other law. As the laws are different for the poor or the second class citizens, the same is true for laws regarding terrorism. If the rich can get away with murder and minorities get stuck with long sentences for simple crimes, the same can be said about Muslims rights being trampled upon in the name of National Security. Before there was Ā 9/11 there was Secret evidence, this goes on soĀ don’tĀ complainĀ as the complaining will falls on deaf ears.

The article is here

NYPD monitored Muslim students all over Northeast

UpdatedĀ 3h 20m ago

NEW YORK (AP) – TheĀ New York Police DepartmentĀ monitored Muslim college students far more broadly than previously known, at schools far beyond the city limits, including theIvy LeagueĀ colleges of Yale and theĀ University of Pennsylvania, the Associated Press has learned.
  • The NYPD monitored Muslim college students at schools beyond the city limits, including the University at Buffalo, pictured here.By David Duprey, APThe NYPD monitored Muslim college students at schools beyond the city limits, including the University at Buffalo, pictured here.

By David Duprey, AP

The NYPD monitored Muslim college students at schools beyond the city limits, including the University at Buffalo, pictured here.

Police talked with local authorities about professors 300 miles away in Buffalo and even sent an undercover agent on a whitewater rafting trip, where he recorded students’ names and noted in police intelligence files how many times they prayed.

Detectives trawled Muslim student websites every day and, although professors and students had not been accused of any wrongdoing, their names were recorded in reports prepared for Police Commissioner Raymond Kelly.

Asked about the monitoring, police spokesmanĀ Paul BrowneĀ provided a list of 12 people arrested or convicted on terrorism charges in theĀ United StatesĀ and abroad who had once been members of Muslim student associations, which theĀ NYPDĀ referred to as MSAs. Jesse Morton, who this month pleaded guilty to posting online threats against the creators of “South Park,” had once tried to recruit followers atĀ Stony BrookĀ University on Long Island, Browne said.

“As a result, the NYPD deemed it prudent to get a better handle on what was occurring at MSAs,” Browne said in an email. He said police monitored student websites and collected publicly available information, but did so only between 2006 and 2007.

“I see a violation of civil rights here,” said Tanweer Haq, chaplain of theĀ Muslim Student AssociationĀ at Syracuse. “Nobody wants to be on the list of theĀ FBIĀ or the NYPD or whatever. Muslim students want to have their own lives, their own privacy and enjoy the same freedoms and opportunities that everybody else has.”

In recent months, the AP has revealed secret programs the NYPD built, with help from theĀ CIA, to monitor Muslims at the places where they eat, shop and worship. The AP also published details about how police placed undercover officers at Muslim student associations in colleges within the city limits; this revelation has outraged faculty and student groups.

Though the NYPD says it follows the same rules as the FBI, some of the NYPD’s activities go beyond what the FBI is allowed to do.

Kelly andĀ New York CityĀ Mayor Michael Bloomberg repeatedly have said that the police only follow legitimate leads about suspected criminal activity.

But the latest documents mention no wrongdoing by any students.

In one report, an undercover officer describes accompanying 18 Muslim students from theĀ City College of New YorkĀ on a whitewater rafting trip in upstateĀ New YorkĀ on April 21, 2008. The officer noted the names of attendees who were officers of the Muslim Student Association.

“In addition to the regularly scheduled events (Rafting), the group prayed at least four times a day, and much of the conversation was spent discussing Islam and was religious in nature,” the report says.

Praying five times a day is one of the core traditions of Islam.

Jawad Rasul, one of the students on the trip, said he was stunned that his name was included in the police report.

“It forces me to look around wherever I am now,” Rasul said.

But another student,Ā Ali Ahmed, whom the NYPD said appeared to be in charge of the trip, said he understood the police department’s concern.

“I can’t blame them for doing their job,” Ahmed said. “There’s lots of Muslims doing some bad things and it gives a bad name to all of us, so they have to take their due diligence.”

City CollegeĀ criticized the surveillance and said it was unaware the NYPD was watching students.

“The City College of New York does not accept or condone any investigation of any student organization based on the political or religious content of its ideas,” the college said in a written statement. “Absent specific evidence linking a member of the City College community to criminal activity, we do not condone this kind of investigation.”

Browne said undercover officers go wherever people they’re investigating go. There is no indication that, in the nearly four years since the report, the NYPD brought charges connecting City College students to terrorism.

Student groups were of particular interest to the NYPD because they attract young Muslim men, a demographic that terrorist groups frequently draw from. Police worried about which Muslim scholars were influencing these students and feared that extracurricular activities such as paintball outings could be used as terrorist training.

The AP first reported in October that the NYPD had placed informants or undercover officers in the Muslim Student Associations at City College,Ā Brooklyn College,Ā Baruch College,Ā Hunter College, City College of New York,Ā Queens College, La Guardia Community College and St. John’s University. All of those colleges are within the New York City limits.

A person familiar with the program, who like others insisted on anonymity because he was not authorized to discuss it, said the NYPD also had a student informant at Syracuse.

Police also were interested in the Muslim student group at Rutgers, inĀ New Brunswick, N.J. In 2009, undercover NYPD officers had a safe house in an apartment not far from campus. The operation was blown when the building superintendent stumbled upon the safe house and, thinking it was some sort of a terrorist cell, called 911.

The FBI responded and determined that monitoring Rutgers students was one of the operation’s objectives, current and former federal officials said.

The Rutgers police chief at the time, Rhonda Harris, would not discuss the fallout. In a written statement, university spokesman E.J. Miranda said: “The university was not aware of this at the time and we have nothing to add on this matter.”

Another NYPD intelligence report from Jan. 2, 2009, described a trip by three NYPD officers to Buffalo, where they met with a high-ranking member of the Erie County Sheriff’s Department and agreed “to develop assets jointly in the Buffalo area, to act as listening posts within the ethnic Somalian community.”

The sheriff’s department official noted “that there are some Somali Professors and students at SUNY-Buffalo and it would be worthwhile to further analyze that population,” the report says.

Browne said the NYPD did not follow that recommendation. A spokesman for the university, John DellaContrada, said the NYPD never contacted the administration. Sheriff’s Departments spokeswoman Mary Murray could not immediately confirm the meeting or say whether the proposal went any further.

Another report, entitled “Weekly MSA Report” and dated Nov. 22, 2006, explained that officers from the NYPD’s Cyber Intelligence unit visited the websites, blogs and forums of Muslim student associations as a “daily routine.”

The universities included Yale; Columbia; the University of Pennsylvania; Syracuse;Ā New York University; Clarkson University; the Newark and New Brunswick campuses of Rutgers; and theĀ State University of New YorkĀ campuses in Buffalo, Albany, Stony Brook and Potsdam, N.Y.; Queens College, Baruch College, Brooklyn College and La Guardia Community College.

“Students who advertised events or sent emails about regular events should not be worried about a ‘terrorism file’ being kept on them. NYPD only investigated persons who we had reasonable suspicion to believe might be involved in unlawful activities,” Browne said.

But such assurances seem to offer little comfort to some former students.

One University at Buffalo student, Adeela Khan, did end up in a police report after receiving an email on Nov. 9, 2006, announcing an upcomingIslamic conference in Toronto. The email said “highly respected scholars” would be attending, but did not say who or give any details of the program. Khan says she clicked “forward,” sent it to a Yahoo chat group of fellow Muslims and promptly forgot about it.

“A couple people had gone the year prior and they said they had a really nice time, so I was just passing the information on forward. That’s really all it was,” said Khan, who has since graduated.

Khan was a board member of the Muslim Student Association at the University at Buffalo at the time. She says she never went to the conference, was not affiliated with it and had no idea who was speaking at it.

But officer Mahmood Ahmad of the NYPD’s Cyber Intelligence Unit took notice and listed Khan in his weekly report for Kelly. The officer began researching the Toronto conference and found that one of the speakers,Ā Tariq Ramadan, had hisĀ U.S.Ā visa revoked in 2004. The U.S. government said it was because Ramadan had given money to a Palestinian group. It reinstated his visa in 2010.

The officer’s report notes three other speakers. One, Siraj Wahaj, is a prominent but controversial New York imam who has attracted the attention of authorities for years. Prosecutors included his name on a 3 ½-page list of people they said “may be alleged as co-conspirators” in the 1993Ā World Trade CenterĀ bombing, though he was never charged.

The other two areĀ Hamza YusufĀ andĀ Zaid Shakir, two of the nation’s most prominent Muslim scholars. Both have lectured at top universities in the U.S.. Yusuf met withPresident George W. BushĀ at theĀ White HouseĀ following the 2001 terrorist attacks.

The post about the academic event was enough to get Khan’s name mentioned in the weekly MSA report, which was stamped “SECRET” in red letters and sent to Kelly’s office.

There is no indication that the investigation went any further, or that Khan was ever implicated in anything. But she worries about being associated with the police report.

“It’s just a waste of resources, if you ask me,” she said. “I understand why they’re doing it, but it’s just kind of like a Catch-22. I’m not the one doing anything wrong.”

The university said it was unaware its students were being monitored.

“UB does not conduct this kind of surveillance and if asked, UB would not voluntarily cooperate with such a request,” the university said in a written statement. “As a public university, UB strongly supports the values of freedom of speech and assembly, freedom of religion, and a reasonable expectation of privacy.”

The same Nov. 22, 2006, report also noted seminars announced on the websites of the Muslim student associations at New York University andĀ Rutgers University‘s campus in Newark, N.J.

Browne, the police department spokesman, said intelligence analysts were interested in recruiting by the Islamic Thinkers Society, a New York-based group that wants to see the United States governed under Islamic law. Morton was a leader of the group and went to Stony Brook University’s MSA to recruit students that same month.

“One thing that our open source searches were interested in determining at the time was, where do Islamic Thinkers Society go – in terms of MSAs for recruiting,” Browne said.

Yale declined comment. The University of Pennsylvania did not immediately respond to requests for comment. Other colleges on the list said they worried the monitoring infringed on students’ freedom of speech.

“Like New York City itself, American universities are admired across the globe as places that welcome a diversity of people and viewpoints. So we would obviously be concerned about anything that could chill our essential values of academic freedom or intrude on student privacy,”Ā Columbia UniversityĀ spokesman Robert Hornsby said in a written statement.

Danish Munir, an alumnus adviser for the University of Pennsylvania’s Muslim Student Association, said he believes police are wasting their time by watching college students.

“What do they expect to find here?” Munir said. “These are all kids coming from rich families or good families, and they’re just trying to make a living, have a good career, have a good college experience. It’s a futile allocation of resources.”

Copyright 2012 The Associated Press. All rights reserved. This material may not be published, broadcast, rewritten or redistributed.

http://www.usatoday.com/news/nation/story/2012-02-18/NYPD-Intelligence/53143776/1

Stick it to the Pakistanis

Stick it more i say, Pakistanis need to be pushed to the limit to realize how to work for their country and get rid of likes of Zardari, Sharif and everyone else. The problem withĀ PakistanisĀ is that we will live in our cocoon and let the leaders of the country get away with everything. Pakistan cannot be fixed without the people rising up and taking care of the corrupt, Leaders are strong because the masses are weak, if someone would deal with corrupt politicians in a matter that sets an example then i dont think anyone would think twice about corrupt

 

The Article is hereĀ http://www.dawn.com/2012/02/18/stick-it-to-the-pakistanis.html

 

why would they follow me

Looking through the list of folks who follow me on twitter (i wouldnt follow myself), i came across something really interesting.Ā Shaadi.com USAĀ follows me, it is a troubling sign …. either they want me to get in serious trouble at home with wifey or something else.

There was a time

There was a time when i couldn’t afford khakis from Walmart and was so happy that i was able to buy my self pants or clothes once.
SubhanAllah, there is so much that i don’t thank Allah for, his blessings are numerous and i am un thankful.
I pray to him that he makes me a better person and gives me the ability to thank him more often than i do now. Inshallah and Ameen.

September 11 2011 (My day)

It has been 10 years and I would rather forget that day but I still do remember quite a lot of things that happened on that day.

It was a normal day for me and I was driving to work in Arlington (less than a Mile from Pentagon). While driving i got a text message from my roommate that a plane had crashed into the world trade center. I thought it must be some drunken Wall Street guy in a Cessna and ignored the importance of that event. By the time i got to work, i realized that there was a lot of activity and chatter in the office. I used to work for a Defense Contractor and quite a few ex-military and reservists used to work for the company and me being the system administrator and quasi-helpdesk had to deal with them. As soon as I entered the office, i was met by our loving HR Manager, she told me about the plane crash and i told her my assumption it being a Cessna and some guy who didn’t want anything better with life. She then informed me that it was a passenger aircraft. This kind of hit me as very unusual and scary. I went to my office which i shared with one of our web developers. Our windows were towards the direction of the pentagon. I was talking to him, when there was news that another plane had hit the World Trade Center. I tried to go on BBC website but couldn’t, I tried other news website and it wouldn’t work. The net was choked with traffic and it was very slow, finally i got to the BBC website and was able to see the pictures of the WTC with smoke, it was horrific and i just didn’t know how to process that information or react to it.

I felt some people pass by my office and saw some stares at me, i had a beard, was a Muslim and wasn’t ashamed of it and i guess some coworkers had already found me or my religion guilty of this act that was still going on. whatever the case, i started my daily tasks and me and my coworker kept discussing the situation in New York, suddenly we heard a huge explosion and the building shook, my coworker looked out his window and said “Oh My God, they have bombed Pentagon”, i looked out my window and could see smoke from the general direction of pentagon. I was suddenly scared, I was scared as this thought was in the back of my mind, “What if this was done by some Muslims?ā€ Then there was another huge explosion, we didn’t know what it was (later one we came to know that the Pentagon building had collapsed) but we started hearing rumors in the office about State Department building getting attacked by a bomb blast and so on. There was a lot of confusion, people were generally scared and i was among them. I and my coworker decided to go to the top of the parking lot but were told by building security that no one was allowed up there and we had to go down, by the time we got down stairs i was told by my director that there was liberal leave in effect and if i wanted to go home then i can take the day off.

I decided to do that as i felt a lot of eyes looking at me in the office. I felt uncomfortable so I packed up my stuff, went to my car which was parking in front of the building, i realized that what was happening was so serious and if Muslims had any hand in this, i should avoid Ā any public display of islam and also remove the Islamic stickers from the back of my car. I removed these three stickers from my car, turned around and tried to leave, when i saw my director running towards me. He waved me to stop and I obliged. He was a great guy, an Ex Special forces person, served with some congressmen also and a very sane mind. He told me that he saw me removing the Islamic stickers from the car and thought that he should reassure me that America was not what i was thinking. USA was a civilized place, we don’t hold people responsible for actions of other people with similar faith and i should not be scared or worried. The removing of the Stickers from the car was too extreme of an action on my part. (Boy he was wrong)

AfterĀ talkingĀ to my Director, i left and went home, one interesting thing happened when I was going home, as i tried to get onto Washington Blvd right outside my office, i was cut off by a Minivan, and then it stopped in front of me, Some Soccer mom came out of the van and opened the trunked, took some jacket out with initials of some Federal Agency and a gun, told me that the road was blocked and i should go some other way. It was very odd, a Soccer mom turning out to be some sort of James Bond.

One more thing i remember was that once i got onto Columbia pike, the scene was very similar to Independence Day, the scene where everyone is leaving DC and no one is driving in, Everyone was going the opposite direction of Pentagon and the road towards Pentagon was Empty. It was quite surreal, some people from their cars turning back and taking pictures of pentagon using their cell phones. I finally got home after an hour, parked my car, entered the apartment, turned on TV and watched the TV for the rest of the day. Took the day off next day and watched TV the next day also.

Looking back, i wish my director was right, I wish i wouldn’t have had so many problems but at the end of the day things did work out. The Islamophobia is part of life now for everyone and we have gotten used to it. September 11th changed the whole world; it truly affected Muslims in the world as much as it affected non-Muslims. Hate is something we cannot tolerate, be it from Muslims or non-Muslims.

 

Karachi and Pakistan (A Solution)

When we hit a 1000 dead then maybe we will do something about it. Until then we will just sit and watch. I don’t get it, Pakistan as a nation had become so ineffective that we can’t even fix our own house. I think the word castrated comes to mind.
Our Armed forces can’t deal with the issues of security, Pakistani people are confused about whom to ask for help, we hate American help but can’t live without it. It is like a drug addict in denial that he/she is a drug addict but keeps taking them. The nation as a whole cannot seem to decide what we need. I feel we are like ME, when I want to study, I just around topics and subjects, never able to concentrate on anything. Pakistani nation is exactly like me, they can’t seem to decide what to do. Here are few steps I think that would solve this issue.

  1. Instruct the Pakistani Army and Security agencies to do a full crackdown in Karachi, be it MQM, JI, ANP or anyone, they get arrested and dealt with.
  2. At the same time, issue Arrest warrants through Interpol for Altaf Hussein, Balouch leaders in exile.
  3. Increase the salary for security agencies and paramilitary agencies by double or triple of the budget, same for the staff at jails.
  4. Reduce the salary of the Politicians by half and also take away 80% of their perks.
  5. Sell off government unused property to generate revenue to cover this all for 1 year.

Then what we do are a couple of years of planning.

  1. Kick out CIA and backwater type agencies from Pakistan for good.
  2. Cut the military budget by 40 percent and put that money one year in education, then in Infrastructure and then in health. This should help in stabilizing the needs that are overlooked for the last many years.
  3. Start collecting taxes, once the revenues are coming in then we can spend it, otherwise World Bank is standing outside the door to make us slaves.
  4. Decrease the Armed forces by 20%.
  5. Land reforms to get rid of this Feudals, cut the maximum amount of land owned by 70%.
  6. Ehtesaab Bureau to be inducted under the judiciary rather than the government appointed agency.

I can keep on going talking about some common sense stuff that can be done about Pakistan but I am sure everyone can come up with these ideas except the losers who sit in power in Islamabad, they can just figure out to give awards to their supporters in national Assembly to keep the government from not working.
I know what would happen to us if these guys will stay in power. DOOMED is the word that comes to mind :(. Inshallah Allah will rid these losers of Pakistan, I can only pray and vote for Imran Khan šŸ™‚
http://www.dawn.com/2011/09/08/isi-briefs-cj-on-parties-involved-in-karachi-unrest.html

 

 

How long can we wait (A view from over there)

Pakistan needs to be liberated, either by hook or crook, in my opinion either the Libyan style rebellion or a saner solution which I think is Imran khan. There is a lot of talk about Imran khan right now; his popularity is increasing much to the dismay of Zardari-Sharif and Co. But there are many who still doubt his leadership and qualities. You can always find plenty of articles or news segments about him in negative light from various news outlets, some call him a Taliban Sympathizer or some call him outright Fundamentalist. I won’t get into these discussions as it is fruitless.

Imran Khan is miles ahead of any political Leader currently aspiring to lead Pakistan, be it the usual suspects of PML (N and Q), PPP or ANP. These parties over the last many decades have proven one thing only, “they are not fit to lead Pakistan”. PPP and PML (N) have been tested twice, PMLQ has been tested once with Musharraf, all these parties have one thing in common, ” they are opportunist and prefer to make the masters happy and the public sad”. Imran Khan on the other hand is a fresh mind and a new experience, he has been on the sidelines for too long and this has worked to his advantage. This time has been a blessing in disguise, it has helped him formulate his policies and sharpen his thoughts about how he wants to lead the country out of its current mess. Rather than making deals he has stuck to principles (much to the dismay of many) and stayed clear of situations where he would have ended up like every other political leader (Lotay is my thought here). He is the only leader who can boast about truly helping the real Pakistanis, From Namal University to Shaukat Khanam, from his time as MNA from the district in Mianwali to PTI’s programs for the poor. Imran doesn’t represent himself; he is the front man to a party which is full of people like Imran Khan. It is the senior leadership and the party workers; they all aspire to be like Imran Khan, who has done everything to make Pakistanis proud. He has been successful in every thing he has been part of, World Cup Cricket, Best Cancer care hospital in Asia and Higher Education for everyone (Namal University). Imran Khan is not alone in this; PTI is full of people who think along the lines of what Imran Khan thinks.

I am currently outside Pakistan; I look at Pakistan from a different perspective than how people might view it from inside Pakistan. Overseas Pakistanis do feel strongly about Pakistan and its future. It is not comfortable to see where Pakistan is heading. The view from over here is not very pleasing and this decent into the darkness needs to stop before we cross the point of no Return. Imran Khan is the only choice for Pakistan. If we miss this chance then we will forever be sorry to our future generations.

I have had the pleasure of meeting Imran Khan but above all i have had a chance to meet members of PTI’s Central Executive Committee. These people are extraordinary folks; they are professionals in their field, patriot Pakistanis and above all normal people who care. They care for the common Pakistani, the everyday laborers, the folks who can’t afford bread at the end of the day, the kids who can’t get admission into the university, parents who can’t provide medical care of their family. They want to make a change that will benefit the future generations of Pakistan, benefit Pakistan and stand up for Pakistan when it is threatened. I met some of the CEC members in America, although i have seen how the political leaders from other parties come and go in luxury, the servants of the servants of current government ministers get to spend the tax rupees on luxuries that we in the west cannot think of, on the other hand Every PTI official i have met in USA including Imran Khan and CEC members, they all travelled humbly and without any pomp and show. They talk about Pakistan and exist for its better future.  I would invite you all to go online to insaf.pk and read about PTI, its manifesto, ask questions on forum and if you think Imran Khan will make a difference then convince your friends, family and relatives to join PTI and make a better future for our future generations.

 

Intelligence not required

I am a bad exam taker; I have had times when I have left exams without writing a single word on the paper because I couldn’t BS my way through it. I have always been in awe of people who are able to do exams and score well. I don’t know what my problem is but it surely is a problem. I have been struggling with a preliminary exam for some time. This December the window into that exam will close also and might never open again. If I fail that exam then I am done with the PhD or lets say that the school is done with me (I wouldn’t give up that quickly).

I remember the days during FSc exams in Pakistan, people would spend less time and effort but master the technique of copy paste onto the paper materials from the book, and on the other hand I would make sincere efforts to understand the materials. The outcome was that I couldn’t get admission into any university. Well by gone be bygones and I am not worried about it anymore but this PhD exam is killing me, the fear of failing it and losing that opportunity at the PhD has kept me awake at nights and even made me fear the exam so much that I don’t want to take it anymore. I know I have to but in the back of my mind I know that I will fail it.

I don’t consider myself a loser or bad at learning, in fact I absorb a lot of information every day, reading/watching and exploring everything from everyday life toĀ internet. I would even consider myself more informed than an average person and even quite a few PhD’s I know or knew. Maybe the problem is that I love to learn everything and can’t just give them up to focus on one thing. Take today for an example, from reading about the Boston mob boss who got arrested last week to mayhem in Libya, Sony cancelling start wars galaxy to some physicist make a glorified jack hammer to create fusion for greener times and so on. I even sometimes make the effort to go on Wikipedia and read and learn about things that I might have read as part of something else. But I guess these are all the tasks of normal people and not the super smarts that do PhDs. If that is the case then I can’t help it. I am fine with a masters but if it not then I should find a way to pass this Damm exam.

I guess while I am on the page of ranting or complaining let me ask this question

“Why everyone talks about the over achievers, why no one talks about the rest of the people like anyone who is not a Ivy league graduate, born to the rich parents, spoon fed their careers and jobs …”

What about the rest of us who are trying and living everyday? I guess we will never know šŸ™‚ Well as far as the exam is concerned Inshallah I will take my best shot at it and if I don’t pass it then it is the loss for the PhD program šŸ™‚

Will write about it after I am done inĀ DecemberĀ with the exam.