Desi Thoughts

New begining of an old story

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Time is still moving forward and i realize i am now 38. What the heck. I spent all my adulthood after goals which are still goals. I wish to make a better futurw. I keep telling myaelf this for the last 17 years. Maybe i will keep sayibg the sane until i die.

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Ramblings of an empty incoherent mind

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Time flies by like a bird. It can never wait for me. It can never favor me. It has played me or i have played it. But it never stops for me. I wish i could change what i do. Change what i have done. But that will doesnt exist in my world for now.

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There was a time

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When I couldn’t afford a McDonald’s meal. It was a luxury I thought beyond me. The same time a khaki pants from Walmart was off limits. When I did gather courage to buy one for less than 20$, I felt I had accomplished something in life. Looking back, I am forgetful and unthankful. Life is not about the latest cars or beat gadgets. I was more happy when I had that Walmart pants than now I can afford much better alhamdulilah. Never forget where you come from. Remind you soul…read more

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Born with it

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Came across alot of “influencers” recently. What is amazing is that they not older than 25 or so. So what makes them an influencer? Apparently their last name. If you are born with a huge bank balance or family name or royalty. You are an influencer. You might not be capable of crap but you are an influencer. Hail to the losers.

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i miss you

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I miss you with all my heart. I wish I could undo a lot of wrong doings. Maybe inshallah soon

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Just a little bit of push

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All I have to do it push my self a little bit and maybe things will get better. Gotta put that extra bit in and maybe things will work out inshallah. Trying to be optimistic rather than a pessimistic will help me accomplish all. All is can do is try inshallah and Allah will help me rest of the way. But one thing that is critical is the faith in the all mighty cuz without faith in him I can out in 200% but that won’t make a difference. 

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Iaido

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I miss iaido. It was something I thoroughly enjoyed and was keen to get good at. I wish they start teaching it here one day.

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Defeated

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I am done. I am defeated. Finished and in utter despair. Life seems like a waste, a failure on every level and magnitude. Disappointment to everyone who I hold dear and who held me dear. I thought using religion was my salvation but that is not the case. I have failed my self in believeing that a person likeĀ  me could be salvaged from the disasters of life. wish I could disappear and be nothing. I could avoid these expectations and demands. But I cannot. I cannot go anywhere. All…read more

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