I miss you with all my heart. I wish I could undo a lot of wrong doings. Maybe inshallah soon
All I have to do it push my self a little bit and maybe things will get better. Gotta put that extra bit in and maybe things will work out inshallah. Trying to be optimistic rather than a pessimistic will help me accomplish all. All is can do is try inshallah and Allah will help me rest of the way. But one thing that is critical is the faith in the all mighty cuz without faith in him I can out in 200% but that won’t make a difference.
I miss iaido. It was something I thoroughly enjoyed and was keen to get good at. I wish they start teaching it here one day.
I am done. I am defeated. Finished and in utter despair. Life seems like a waste, a failure on every level and magnitude. Disappointment to everyone who I hold dear and who held me dear. I thought using religion was my salvation but that is not the case. I have failed my self in believeing that a person like me could be salvaged from the disasters of life. wish I could disappear and be nothing. I could avoid these expectations and demands. But I cannot. I cannot go anywhere. All…read more
This is the outcome of my experience now. Management loves graphs and color coded crap. We don’t care if it even works but as long as it does color graphs then that is fine. God help me
I have been out of Islamabad since 98 and last visited the city in 2003. Alot has changed and I don’t know if the same Islamabad exists. Maybe the memories are more beautiful then the city itself. Maybe I will go inshallah and see it this year. Maybe I should expect disappointment as those places don’t exist which I am used to.
Have a lot if pictures but never get around to posting any. These are from my phone
Living in qatar is a blessing. But if you are not careful you will fall in the trap of letting islam go on autopilot. Salat is a norm. Enough masjid around except if ur in the pearl. So u won’t miss Salat but other than that everything is an extra effort which one doesn’t realize cuz “I am in a Muslim country” mentality will lead you to do everything that you didnt do back home. So be careful, hangout with the right company. Spend time with family and try ur…read more
GCC level of work ethics are beyond me. I still cannot understand the politics here. It is nationalistic or ethnic but not related to the betterment of the organizations. Vendors control supply chain and technology. New technologies are hard to come by. Everything requires a meeting. Then the meeting requires another meeting. New ideas need to be pitched with certain carrots otherwise they will be shot down. The philosophy is “don’t change it if it works, don’t replace it as the vendor is well settled here or don’t change it…read more
I have moved to qatar and taken a job here. Family is here also and a new adventure starts. Inshallah